The first few moments after Ray woke up were usually confusing. It wasn’t that his short term memory was bad. His head just took a few moments to access those memories. Once he woke up in a motel - on a vacation with his parents in Hawaii - and it took him five minutes to figure out where he was and what he was doing there. When he woke up in his bed in his apartment with Laura sleeping next to him, his first thought was, ‘Holy shit, I finally slept with Laura.’, but he couldn’t remember having done so.
Slowly the memories returned. Not just the sex. He remembered everything. He wanted to feel guilty. Guilt would have made him feel like a good person, but instead he felt exhilarated. Excited. And that made him feel guilty. Because Brandon was dead.
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